tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63659862011-04-21T14:45:29.601-07:00Jen's BlogUmm yeah here's where you all get to be voyeurs and live your sick and twisted little lives through me :)jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comBlogger401100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1131074145240797922005-11-03T19:15:00.000-08:002005-11-03T19:16:40.176-08:00my new blog is at xanga.com/jen21203jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1102704533878854762004-12-10T10:47:00.000-08:002004-12-10T10:48:53.876-08:00 Jens x-mas list
DVD’s Pitch Black DVD Dark Fury DVD Gift Cards Gift cards to: lane Bryant, Burlington coat factory, Best Buy, circuit city. Computer stuff 256 or 512 mb pc133 memory DVD Burner 40 gb hard drive or larger Web Cam Digital Camera etc New box spring (full) Money for clothes Scuncci Steam Cleaner (as seen on TV) Good work out shoes by new balance, adidas, or K-swiss size 10w(wide jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1081392436364500992004-04-07T19:42:00.000-07:002004-04-07T19:51:03.483-07:00i think i need prozac and some intense thereapy. i dunno i've just been really down and out. feeling really alonefor some stupid reason. i just grr. i need to take a step back...but i can't even get my head out of the hole i've dug myself into. becky is trying her best but it just aint happening. frank...yeah frank is in his own little world right now and i doubt he gives two shits. i can jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1081041443372189822004-04-03T17:17:00.000-08:002004-04-03T17:21:05.296-08:00my finger hurts a staple bit mejenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1080971653615570942004-04-02T21:52:00.000-08:002004-04-02T21:57:54.686-08:00i remmber a time when you made me feel beautiful
but now you just make me feel repulsive
like even the soggiest garbage pile isnt worth my presance
i'm sick of loving you
when you obviously don't love me back
i remmeber when you begged to tell me
but now...was it just all an act?
jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1080971528114466672004-04-02T21:48:00.000-08:002004-04-02T21:55:49.216-08:00i have pink eye. i'm making chilli. i think my boyfriend stopped loving me a long ass time ago. and becky is going to be 20 tomorrow. i don't have a damn dime to get her a present. the whole school thinks i look like a fucking guy and frank just relished telling me this. my hair is purple. and i really like my cat shelby. i swear to damn much. i got a 17 on my end phase test. i would have been upjenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1080449773283371172004-03-27T20:54:00.000-08:002004-03-27T20:59:45.233-08:00hey peeps/ worked was okay. kim is a saving grace. i got a present for lily but frank decided to go out so i couldn't go over there and give it to her. beck and i are watching rundown. the rock is kinda hot. later babejenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1080353253048836982004-03-26T18:07:00.000-08:002004-03-26T18:11:04.140-08:00jon blows major fucking balls. jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1079961705195706492004-03-22T05:18:00.000-08:002004-03-22T05:25:09.890-08:00i've decided that love is hard work. kinda like married people say marrage is hard work. if there isn't communication and trust then you have nothing. its really hard for me to trust becasue i've been taken advantage of in the past. being gulable really sucks.
anyway i really need to start to go to work. if i keep this up i'm going to get fired. i just hate being there and i really did not feel jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1079912813884753672004-03-21T15:28:00.000-08:002004-03-21T15:50:17.640-08:00god damn it what the fuck is wrong with me. i always swore to myself that i was not going to be like this when i started dating. what drew me to frank was how wounded he was. i wanted to help him heal. i mean i was so scared of getting into this realtionship that i waited five months before i could finally say yes...and that was all because he promised he wouldn't hurt me. i mean i cried in his jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1079510581060370322004-03-16T23:55:00.000-08:002004-03-17T00:06:18.840-08:00_____how can i trust you now_____
you say this to my face
yet in your heart lies nothing
i ask my self now
why
to the darkness
why
but no answer do i get
and though i'm bleeding
ironicly i wish your arms
were around me
i cry out through my tears
he promised
he promised
you promised
he said he'd never hurt me
was that just the first lie
told to calm my fears
now i know how you work
how your jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1079321487445504162004-03-14T19:09:00.000-08:002004-03-14T19:34:41.843-08:00hehe my boy toy finally read my blog. *shrug* i feel like i only right on here when i super depressed...which is prolly true. but hey i got a really good grade on my first phase. which is cool. missed most class time of everyone in the class combined but hey thats okay. whatever i was gettin laid. i dunno i've just been thinking. and travis broke up with justien becuase i dunno. it was getting jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1078890545136411652004-03-09T19:42:00.000-08:002004-03-09T19:52:12.483-08:00my belly exercise log...
yeah never mind. so whats up people? School is going okay. a lot of tens on the tests. but i hate going to school when i'm just bored out of my mind. becky's mom went fucking postal on her. really pissed me off. damn bitch. jon called me out of the blue. thursday is the next deadline. i'm gonna go over there before school and demand to get a check. then i'll buy my new jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1078478395959439992004-03-05T01:10:00.000-08:002004-03-05T01:22:57.153-08:00You know. i never thought i could feel so alone and yet be so close to some one. is it some kind of inherited power to just turn off that connection? you know that thing inside you that recognises the other person. i mean i feel like i'm always open always on and i have no shelter, no relief. but a few times in my life i've found someone else that kind of is on the same wave legnth. and those jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1078108490283284272004-02-29T18:31:00.000-08:002004-02-29T18:37:45.373-08:00hey everybody. whats up. so frank called last night. i don't know when. i had taken a sleeping pill cause i was too upset or worried to sleep. i have to get my sorry butt outta bed at 5 in morning tomorrow so i took another one. last time though. i really don't feel like being addicted to sleeping pills. *yuck* umm yeah i don't know whats wrong with me but i really miss frank. i got my pictures jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1078026819069424952004-02-28T19:52:00.000-08:002004-02-28T19:56:32.590-08:00hey peeps. frank is MIA since last night i hope he is okay. i cut my hair all chort again. tomorrow becky is going to color it for me. and i am really tired...not much else to say. laterjenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1077498475614414142004-02-22T17:05:00.000-08:002004-02-22T17:10:42.530-08:00my mom went psyco the other day. but i cleaned the bathroom so thats okay now. she made breakfast this morning. and i missed it casue frank said he was going to make breakfast...and he didn't. :( his mom made hamburgers. i'm going to go chill with becky soon. were denny's ing it up. its really great to talk to her again. laterjenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1077155982471105892004-02-18T17:57:00.000-08:002004-02-18T18:02:22.890-08:00okay haven't updated in a while i know. and those last few were pretty scary. but mentally i'm fine. jon is still an ass and has officially dissapeared. his grandma answered the cell when i called. wheather or not jon was actually not there is up for debate. do i care? not really. i'm to feed up to care. i'll get his sorry ass. i haven't made any threats but i'll start if i have to. damn it biatchjenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076701545564713702004-02-13T11:38:00.000-08:002004-02-13T11:48:18.140-08:00you know you have friends and boyfriends to suport you emotionally when your down and out. when they come through its like wow. your whole day brightens and it just doesn't seem too bad. but when they don't come through its...its that much worse becasue then. then your are being stabbed in the back by those that call you friend. you know a hug goes a long way. and when your pain is underestimatedjenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076655512900430442004-02-12T22:55:00.000-08:002004-02-12T23:01:04.543-08:00alcohol...it numbs the pain till tomorow. lets you forget how fucked up your life is. lets you imiagine you have friends that care. lets the tears fall dry and silent. lets your world become perfect. hide in it. revel in it. i really need more alcohol that after shock shit burns.jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076650931191550612004-02-12T21:42:00.000-08:002004-02-12T21:44:42.983-08:00So I trusted you and now what
I can’t believe I was so god damn blind
You were just using me
congratulations I feel used
I wish I had you in front of me now
see what you’ve done
But you’d only live long enough
To understand
Then I’d rip out your guts
Shove them down your throat
Let you choke on your black insides
jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076650367344223102004-02-12T21:30:00.000-08:002004-02-12T21:35:19.263-08:00you know people really suck. i'm so god damn sick of being stood up and blown off that i could scream. for all that i've done for people or rather one person and this is the kind of treatment i get. wtf? thats all i really have to say. wtf did i ever do to that son of a bitch except everything last god damn thing he asked. i'm so done its not even funny. jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076635449641769072004-02-12T17:23:00.000-08:002004-02-12T17:26:41.513-08:00so yea positive response from the beckster. finally got a hold of that ass Jon fro my god damn money...i swear i was going to haul off and hit the fucker. at least get him fired. lol jk anywho i'm bored so i think i'm gonna play some yahoo pooljenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076534551619255022004-02-11T13:20:00.000-08:002004-02-11T13:25:01.810-08:00umm yeah so what do you do when your best friend of five years sends you an e-mail saying she doesn't hate you...i mean does that mean she wants to talk? or get together? or is she just clearing the air? i am really tripping here. but i have an e-mail ready to sned back to her...but ehh waiting a little bit before i send it...digestion time u know?jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076470436394658292004-02-10T19:32:00.000-08:002004-02-10T19:36:25.513-08:00so i wandered into the kitchen and my mom had the great idea that i should make cookies...so i did. chocolate chip cookies. and they turned out a little flat. not so great tasting. at least i didn't burn themjenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076470308726018222004-02-10T19:31:00.000-08:002004-02-10T19:34:17.873-08:00
create your own visited states map
or write about it on the open travel guide
jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076450487701238632004-02-10T13:59:00.000-08:002004-02-10T14:03:56.826-08:00okay i just got a fucking parking ticket in the god damn mail for park or stand on cross walk!?! Chicago is fucked up and i only blocked a whole 6 freakin inches of the damn side walk. grrr!!! 50 bucks? i don't think so. arg. i hate chicago. build some freakin parking already. just because i was in the mexican ghetto doesn't mean that they don't deserve parking...i don't care if they couldn't jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076106515058873312004-02-06T14:27:00.000-08:002004-02-06T14:30:58.310-08:00Cold= snow shovel fight + bigger younger brother + Snow mixed with hair dripping down the back
yes... yes i got schooled and shower in the same snow fightjenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076098702706054332004-02-06T12:17:00.000-08:002004-02-06T12:20:45.983-08:00hey...i look like i've been abused...really really big hickies on my neck...a few bite marks...i think i have a bruise on my breast...yeah umm...but it was fun. so that counts for something right?jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1076029819592559442004-02-05T17:06:00.000-08:002004-02-05T17:12:41.920-08:00hi. i'm sad, Snuggles is getting sick. he doesn't feel good and i feel bad cause he feels bad and its just a vicious cycle!
what is it about snow that scares people? so what if my brakes are bad...i couldn't stop on snow even if i had cross drilled vented rotors...if my shitty tires are slipping nothing short of a curb or another car is going to stop me. sides...i've driven through worse...(i jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1075776148236521122004-02-02T18:39:00.000-08:002004-02-02T18:44:46.216-08:00Hey ya'll
"Something bout those little pills/the pills/the thrills/ they yeild until they kill a million brain cells/ something about those little pills"
yup i think i like techno...even when i'm not dancing...aint that scary
jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1075405826656816872004-01-29T11:49:00.000-08:002004-01-29T11:52:38.483-08:00Do you realise that the federal government took out 10% of my income!!! 1200 bucks! but hey at least i'm getting 700 back . :) nicejenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1075352714357775062004-01-28T21:04:00.000-08:002004-01-28T21:07:25.966-08:00"Matches, Matches, Fire on a stick. Whoa!"-foamy
new IllWillPress Episode. BURN BABY BURN.i laughed my arse off check it out.
http://www.illwillpress.com/jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1075329418353830512004-01-28T14:35:00.000-08:002004-01-28T14:39:09.140-08:00hi ya'll. i'mpainting my nails red..dark burgundy red. cool huh? i thought so. yeah i'm just bumming sround again trying to get some modivation to file my tax return...arg you know they took out 1200 bucks! geeze! i hope i get a lot of it back. that would be sweet. need the money too lata babajenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1075249045001556362004-01-27T16:14:00.000-08:002004-01-27T16:19:34.796-08:00Hi i just ordered new tongue rings! yea! happy jen. had to work today Christina is a bitch. but other than that it was busy so not too bad. i'm just vegging around right now chillin. wondering how franks fix it date went with adrea or wait no aAdreana...arg i don't know what her name is but it starts with an A. so anyway. i've got two bottles of O3 that haven't been drank yet so i think i might jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1075163306505706772004-01-26T16:25:00.000-08:002004-01-26T16:30:34.890-08:00"now the automotive scene is blessed witha variety of style bravado unmatched since perhaps the 1950's. But with that blessing comes a curse. for every boldly beautiful new desgin that attracts legions of fans, there is an over reach, or an outright miss that leaves people averting there eyes (insert "Aztek" here)."
From Motor trend Mag. nice huh? loljenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1075160775616077852004-01-26T15:44:00.000-08:002004-01-26T15:48:23.780-08:00hey peeps whats new. i'm jsut chilling at home. i think i fianlly figured whqat kind of tattoo i want. its a twist on the band Cold's symbol the spyder. www.coldonline.com but there will be a pic on the site as soon as i get it. i think its kind of timeless, cool , but not something i'm going to get tired of. so its cool. laterjenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1075068939868547152004-01-25T14:12:00.000-08:002004-01-25T14:17:46.810-08:00hey yall, i don't want to go to work today...grr. i hope i'm working with Kim so i can blow off some steam and just bitch the whole night. i am really starting to hate my job. i need a new one. any ideas? The butterfly Effect was AWESOME. i highly recomend it to anyone even slightly interested in psycology or time travel. its one big love story but its got plenty of violence and gore. i jumped jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1074918756108618522004-01-23T20:30:00.000-08:002004-01-23T20:34:40.436-08:00hi peeps. just waiting with my thumb up my butt for frank. were gonna go see the butterfly Effect. i'll let you know if its any good. but hey at elast its got sum eye candy right? Ashton...yeah he's aiight looking. but anyway i've got less than a month until UTI Starts...i am really excited and really scared too. i want to blow everyone away with how good i do. i know i have a lot to prove to my jenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6365986.post-1074743504531282712004-01-21T19:51:00.000-08:002004-01-21T19:53:46.576-08:00Hi ya'll just seeing if this works. we'll see if i update it more often than my web pagejenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16685735788859560070noreply@blogger.com